Someone must know the answer but no one doesn't. Is it worth the hype? I, for one, do not have an answer to that question. In fact, with confidence, I could say that I have never fallen in love. Sorry to hype you up. However, I had been having some very philosophical thoughts about love, relationships, and attraction for the past few weeks-- and a good portion of them, cynical (without meaning to). To my ever so judging mind, love is as impractical as it is terrifying. It is terrifying because I have heard stories, both fictional and in real life, of people taking risks and downright questionably nonsensical things "in the name of love". I heard that love can be blinding and manipulative like that. With those things, I feel the urge to ask, "Is anyone sure love is not a euphemism for the deadliest virus known to man?" Is the potential happiness and life satisfaction one might get from the act of falling or being in love worth it? I don't know, don't ask me. At any case, it may very well be that I am just paranoid and read too much crime fiction. As a general outlook, I have a tendency to become annoyed at feelings I couldn't properly wrap a leash around. You can just tell I don't sit in well with Freudian psychology and his whole subconscious desires biz. On the flipside of the coin, and rather representative of my conflicting personality, I am possibly the most hopeless romantic in my close group of friends (added emphasis on hopeless). No matter how cold-hearted I may have sounded in the last paragraph (which I am told I can very well be upon occasional situations such as first meetings), I have a very weak heart for emotions and sentiments. Sad movie scenes always get me; no matter how bad they are. Don't even get me started on animal deaths... those are the worst (but that's for another post). I may have a wishlist(s) stashed somewhere describing my ideal soulmate along with scenarios of happily ever afters (but I obviously don't, what am I, five?) I may also have some daytime musings about getting pursued and courted by that one person who only exists in my dreams (why?) For that imaginary person, maybe, just maybe, I would be willing to compromise some impracticality (please see: paragraph 2). It's a romantic thought, nonetheless. It makes me want to barf at myself. At any case, I am as single as I can be at the moment and it's not something I despise. There's nothing particularly wrong with being single, in my opinion. To add that I have many more things I'd like to focus on first and if somewhere along the path of doing those things, I stumble upon someone, then why not? Otherwise, I'm in no rush to fall in love; I've waited this long, I don't mind waiting a bit more. If that's what it takes then so be it. Due to both my cynicism and romanticism, I reckon I may have to wait a long time because I don't believe in flings and I especially don't believe in taking love lightly. You're investing time, effort, and possibly, money into that person. They better be somebody whom you have already built a trusting friendship with before even thinking of starting a romantic relationship. Do I sound extra cautious? I do, don't I? Well, such is the case since I lack the experience, and so somebody out there, would you like to be my first? It's me, no one-- and this post is directed to you, Mr. Somebody.
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